My PhD love-hate relationship

Rachel-Ann Charles

By Rachel-Ann Charles, PhD student, School of Media

I come from the beautiful twin island of Trinidad and Tobago, filled with a rich, exotic culture. However, many social issues, such as poverty, crime, sexually-transmitted diseases and the likes cripple our society. As a result of this, during my final year of my undergraduate studies I decided to utilise my skills in helping young people particularly in at-risk situations to become empowered and be the best they can. So in order to assist them I felt that I needed to fully grasp the theory and practice in this field in order to provide useful solutions to youth in need. I pursued an MSc in Poverty and Development in the hopes of understanding my target group. However, I needed to conduct some specific research based on existing media for social change programmes that currently exist in Trinidad and Tobago. I took a leap of faith and applied to the Birmingham Centre for Media and Cultural Research at the University as I felt the centre was equipped with the required expertise.

Starting my PhD

I embarked on my PhD journey in February 2012 with so much excitement, drive, and determination, and went ahead full speed. I spent most of my time working on my PhD with absolutely no social life. By the end of the seventh month I was drained and extremely exhausted. Within that time I changed my research topic at least twice and was very much concerned about whether I was behind my PhD schedule.

I had massive anxieties about this, not realising that this process is fairly normal and is in fact part of the PhD development. During that time I spoke with as many people as possible, such as my supervisors, colleagues on PhD programmes and external researchers in my field, as I had quite a number of questions and concerns.


Reflecting on my experience – which is still happening – I often refer to it as a love-hate relationship. Some days I am passionate about my research and everything that comes with it, while on other days I say to myself, “what did I get myself into”. After which I positively affirm my thoughts by thinking “the end justifies the means.” Well that’s my hope anyway. At the start of the process, I can recall researching on ‘what doing a PhD entails’ and I also conducted some specific research into my area of study. I assumed that I understood what I was getting myself into, but it was only when I was on the journey that I started to really understand the PhD process.

There have been quite a number of obstacles in various areas of this process. I think the first hindrance was that I didn’t really know what studying a PhD at Birmingham City University would involve.  My second major problem is that I did not embrace the journey; I started off as if it were a race. However, the PhD requires so much love and attention, in order to mould it into something spectacular. I also think that at the start it’s easy to get lost in the literature but realising that the PhD can only cover so much, sooner than later, aids with managing a wide array of materials.

Why I research

What I love most about researching media for social change is the impact on local, national and international communities. Knowing that my research can impact on youth policy and programmes within Trinidad and Tobago. Knowing that the overall society can be improved…as the youth are the leaders of tomorrow. Those are the factors that keep me going when I encounter obstacles. Media for social change is a fairly new and growing field and my research has wider implications on the teaching and research. I also love that the PhD process allows me to discuss my research through platforms such as research seminars, conference presentations and publications. These dialogues enhanced the overall quality of my research.

Tips for PhD students

My top tips for anyone thinking of doing a PhD are:

  • Find out as much about the process as possible before embarking on the journey
  • Ensure that you are researching something that you are passionate about
  • Embrace your research journey
  • As soon as any issues are identified, take them up with your supervisor(s) immediately
  • Don’t be afraid to discuss your issues with other academics in your department
  • Identify and liaise with an external mentor in your field

The benefits

PGRNet-logoThe best kept secrets are the benefits of studying at Birmingham City University. I became involved in the Postgraduate Research Network (PGRNet) when I started my PhD and this has provided me with enormous experiences. I have managed to network with people from all faculties, and that has contributed to having a well-rounded experience. I have also gained teaching experience, and career experience on campus. Overall I have developed as both a researcher and a professional. I plan to continue research in the area of media for social change, and also develop an organisation that utilises the findings of the research for the greater good of society.